lifeless.

Friday, November 12, 2004

On wednesday,went out wit my beshfwen.She say she wana release her stress and tell me abt her probs.So went to causeway point.Da lame btol tak gi sane.walk2,bought some stuff while she tell all her probs.Aft dat went orchard.Just go takashimaya.Buka at her house,makan mee siam.Den aft buka,her family went to geylang while i go meet my baby..

So what did i do?Accompanied him play takraw with his frens.Hes the type that everyday must play sports punye.Konon fit ah gitu.Kay actually i was kinda pissed off at first.Cos i met him abt 8.15.That means i dun really haf a lot of time to spend with him,i gotta be home before 12.And then,he ajak me accompany him play takraw.So it was more of like him spending time with his frens while i sat n...what?watched him play.pppfftt.And some more,my ulcer's killing me.I got this super huge ulcer and the tip of my tongue.at the tip mind u.And u use the tip to talk n stuff.so its so irritating each time i wana talk.And then again,i was not in a really good mood.haiz.

After playing,he immediately changed n wanted to send me home.Throughout the walking to the bus stop,i kept quiet the whole time and when he asked me questions,i answered word.Suddenly he's like sad. "u nie macam lain je hari nie.Apasal seh.Niari da lah kite jumpe kejap,beh u diam je.Abeh nanti starting frm tmrw,i da start keje hari2,da tak leh jumpe slalu.Beh hari nie jumpe,u lak macam diam je." So,i was quite guilty.Then i told him i duno why but recently ive felt fucked up,always not in a good mood. "Ala..nie yg i tak nak dengar nie.Recently2 nye benda nie.Haiz." He was..really upset seh.Until i felt guilty.So i thot, eh apasal aku emosi2 sangat nie.Ikotkan perasaan.So i decided to throw away the moody feeling and spend watever time with him.Sheesh.i dunno why im like that on that day.

Well to cut short,he's just afraid that im olready bored with him.Cos now,theres 2 guys who's..i dunno..waiting for me?That sounds so..haha.ok.nvm.Adelah cite2 die.And when i told him abt these 2 guys,he's like scared that i might leave him anytime to go to the other guys.Im like,hell no seh.And my moody feeling that day scares him i assume.He's just thinking of the worst.He's been so nice to me.Very understanding.And the type that gives in.He's been treating me right so why shud i let him go rite?No no no..i wont.

HAH! Sucha boring story rite to u guys.ARGGHHH!!!!! mm..haiz.

Anyways,did spring cleaning yesterday.Continuing today.Mum's off to market and she expects me to finish wiping the windows n mopping the floor when she came back.She's gone for an hour and im still hooked at the comp.She might come back anytime soon.Oh no.Im dead.

voiced out
3:15 PM