lifeless.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

left at 1pm from work today with permission from spencer. izwan came earlier to cover for my shift. he's kinda new in lido. so anyway, i went ngee ann poly alone after that to apply under JPSAE for mass comm. just in case i didn't get it thru JAE. well i didn't know i had to have a portfolio for the interview, if im shortlisted that is. i thot portfolios are only for design courses and stuffs. after thinking it through, i realised that i don't seem to want this course so much. it sure is gonna be challenging and i just don't have a lot of confidence already. i don't even know what you're supposed to show in that freaking portfolio. and worse still, i got no experience. so i only have early childhood to hope for, out of millions of courses. dammit im so frustrated!!!!!!!! because of this #!$#$#^%&^*&$^% mathematics. just imagine.. if i were to get a C6 for maths, i'll be the happiest fucker in the world.

and i wonder why ngee ann students look at me weirdly. as if they're saying "what is this bitch doing here?" suckers.

head back to lido frm ngee ann. gave ferena back her hp. so im handphone-less now. my hp's spoiled, my cousin's spare hp spoiled, and ferena needs her hp. watched Fun With Dick And Jane with ikhmal and duri. 3/5 stars. no money, not happy.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH
MY LIFE IS A TOTAL MESS!!!!!!
F***!!!!

but anyway im looking forward to tomorrow. i got a date with fadli. i hope you can ease my stress baby... well i got nothing for valentines day and i didn't give him anything either. to me its just another day. u dun need valentines day to show your love and concern rite? but i guess it'll took forever for fadli to do romantic stuffs, even like giving a flower to me. haha. he's just not great at these kinda stuffs. he's better at making me do gross things, tell corny jokes and making me laugh like a mad woman.

and that's the reason im still going head over heels over him =)

voiced out
1:10 AM