lifeless.

Friday, February 17, 2006

watched Jarhead yesterday. it was a good movie. but the date wasn't smooth enough for me to enjoy.

WE JUST HAD A FREAKING QUARREL I AM SO BLOODY FRUSTRATED I JUST HATE IT WHEN THINGS HAVE TO GO THIS WAY I WISH HE'D BE MORE UNDERSTANDING AND GAVE ME ALL THE CARE AND CONCERN THAT I NEED I WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT I AM SO IRRITATED AND SO SICK OF HIS ATTITUDE BUT HE JUST DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO CHANGE I CAN'T FORCE HIM I WISH I COULD ITS HURTING ME DEEP DEEP INSIDE AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT ITS SO FRUSTRATING I THINK I CAN GO CRAZY SOON I AM SO SICK OF HIS FACE SO SICK OF HIM SO SICK OF THE WAY HE TREATS ME SO SICK OF HIM ACTING AS IF NOTHING HAS HAPPENED AS IF OUR RELATIONSHIP WAS FULL OF RAINBOWS AND BUBBLES WHEN THE FACT IS THAT ITS ACTUALLY FULL OF BULLSHITS AND HATRED AND FEELINGS HIDDEN DEEP INSIDE I WISH I COULD TELL HIM THAT BUT HE JUST DOESN'T CARE WELL MAYBE HE CARED A LITTLE BIT BUT HE DOESN'T EVEN MAKE THE EFFORT TO CHANGE OH MY I WISH I COULD SLAP HIM BACK TO REALITY IM SO FUCKING PISSED AND THE TRUTH IS ITS ALL SO MIXED UP THAT I DUN ACTUALLY KNOW WHAT IS HAPPENING TO US ANYMORE ITS LIKE WE'RE SMILING AND LAUGHING AND BEING FUCKING HAPPY BUT DEEP INSIDE I AM NOT HAPPY AND I DON'T KNOW WHY

~~please spank me~~

voiced out
10:19 PM