Monday, March 13, 2006
pictures of azizah's 21st birthday bash last week. 2 pics only. haha.
first things first... do check out Berita Minggu on 12 march pg 16. the twins are in!! my nieces..
well im down all day today. late at night had a big quarrel again. endlessly. i lay in bed and thought about it. what is happening... i am so so tired to think. i don't know whether i'm happy anymore. these things happen so frequently that i don't know how to react. he's changed lately. he loves raising his voice at me over the littlest things and scold me vulgar words often. he's not like this before. i felt really sad whenever he lashed out those dirty words at me. i'll normally just keep quiet and he'll urged me to answer him back. then i'll cry silently. i felt like a little child once again.
is it really worth it. why can't we be happy, be the perfect couple everyone thought we were? no more sense of understanding between us anymore. i felt so worthless when i'm with him. its as if i am nothing to him anymore. he used to appreciate me so much, shows that he care for me and paid his fullest attention to me but now? i feel that the world is crashing down on me. everyone around me that i noe is happy, with their beloved ones.. and getting into their dream schools.. while me? i'm struggling like a fish out of water...
Sassy Z : welcome. i had fun too! =)
lil' lyssa : mana leh tak worry. its not mine, and not yours! but dun worry. i'll try my best to make up for the loss k.
Friday : *winks*
Fida : eh aku nye suka ah aku nak keje ke tak nak. kau tu datang salah hari.. hehe.
emma : ya cite sedih eh.. $0 line baru! tak nak! =p
voiced out
2:05 AM
pictures of azizah's 21st birthday bash last week. 2 pics only. haha.
first things first... do check out Berita Minggu on 12 march pg 16. the twins are in!! my nieces..
well im down all day today. late at night had a big quarrel again. endlessly. i lay in bed and thought about it. what is happening... i am so so tired to think. i don't know whether i'm happy anymore. these things happen so frequently that i don't know how to react. he's changed lately. he loves raising his voice at me over the littlest things and scold me vulgar words often. he's not like this before. i felt really sad whenever he lashed out those dirty words at me. i'll normally just keep quiet and he'll urged me to answer him back. then i'll cry silently. i felt like a little child once again.
is it really worth it. why can't we be happy, be the perfect couple everyone thought we were? no more sense of understanding between us anymore. i felt so worthless when i'm with him. its as if i am nothing to him anymore. he used to appreciate me so much, shows that he care for me and paid his fullest attention to me but now? i feel that the world is crashing down on me. everyone around me that i noe is happy, with their beloved ones.. and getting into their dream schools.. while me? i'm struggling like a fish out of water...
Sassy Z : welcome. i had fun too! =)
lil' lyssa : mana leh tak worry. its not mine, and not yours! but dun worry. i'll try my best to make up for the loss k.
Friday : *winks*
Fida : eh aku nye suka ah aku nak keje ke tak nak. kau tu datang salah hari.. hehe.
emma : ya cite sedih eh.. $0 line baru! tak nak! =p
voiced out
2:05 AM
