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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

as usual am in OA again.

went for my appointment yesterday with mr alfian. it was actually a facial appointment lah. hah. my first time ever. my face is infested with blackheads and the therapist kept on going "aiyo!! your face so teruk.. how long already you keep the blackheads!" errr, yea. i wasn't really particular abt my face last time. but now macam ade hati gitulah nak lawa2. haha. the first part was ok, very relaxing.. till the time comes when she began to squeeze my blackheads out. ohgawd it was sooooooooooooooo excruciatingly painful!!!!!! and its not even over yet! i have to come back next week to continue the torture. sheesh! and after that my whole face looks like tomato, so red! till now. hurhur. i dun wanna go the canteeeeeennnnnnn.. malu.. i cannot face botak. hahhaha.

but thats ok. just look at me in a few weeks time. i will have flawless skin! (i hope?) i spend like 150 bucks on this. arrrgghh! but im happy anyway, that i received my pay yesterday. i was surprised! cos i got more than what i thought i got. kinda funny in a way but that is REALLY ok. i dun mind AT ALL. hoho. and i got my ezlink card so yiippie! i wont have to spend a fortune on transport anymore. and i will have more money to spend! GSS! =)=)

and to ikhmal, its ok to cancel the outing today. i understand how you feel. be strong kay? and its not as if the world has ended. it may seem that way but don't worry. take this time to see all the beautiful things in the world. please don't do anything stupid and do take care. i'll be here if you need anyone alrite? =)

i was sad too... thinking about my own b****up sometime ago. gosh i fucking hate that word. and how i was so devastated. but now, i am happy, in a way. i do think about him sometimes but i wish i don't have to. what's the use? hes like drifting away from me...so near yet so far. i couldn't reach out to him anymore. at times i wonder if this is this really the end of all ends. and at times i do not wish to think about it.

i'm sorry for being suddenly so emo.. i just need to let go. apologies for vulgarities. have a nice day guys.

voiced out
8:54 AM