lifeless.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

i'm so sad. fad called me and when we talk, he asked me several questions that i do not wish to answer. but i answered them truthfully anyway. and he hung up on me. for the first time, i wasn't mad when he did that. he was obviously heartbroken and angry.

i've hurt him again i know. its just that i don't wanna hide anything from him. its ok if he doesn't wanna talk to me anymore, it's ok if alfian doesn't wanna talk to me anymore too. but i just wanna apologise. i think i've hurt the 2 of them enough. and it's time to stop. i don't deserve them. i really don't. i'm just a selfish b*tch who thinks of herself. i want this f*cked up behaviour of mine to end now. once again, i'm sorry to the both of you. i wish you do not have to see me again.

voiced out
7:59 PM