lifeless.

Monday, January 15, 2007

after 2 weeks of not seeing each other, of course i was really excited for today to come, bcos fad called me in the middle of the night yesterday saying that he wanna meet me today. i called him after school and he's still sleeping. he said he would call me again after that but even after hours later, guess what, he still hasn't fucking call me. look at the time now, we are confirmed not going out. apparently the rain made him a lazy person to step out of the house. urgh, i feel like...like a little kid whose lollipop has just been snatched away. it was just so upsetting, i was enjoying the moments before that because i was excited and then suddenly, it didn't happen. excited for nothing!!! *&%^$%$#!! then when i was lying in bed feeling fucked up, aidil sent a mass sms to us including me saying that he was terminated by brian for not being a good manager and that most of the staff don't like him. and he was thanking us for working well with him while he was there and stuff. all i could think of was WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK. what, just because he's malay or something???? so fucking racist siak. other stuffs had happened too before i make this conclusion ok. i don't know what about him that makes them say he's a bad manager. i've always seen him doing his job and not lazing around or anything. it's like not fair omg. i even cried, not because of aidil alone but because of the bad day i was facing. fuck everything sial. i'm so fed up of everything. im so fed up of fad's attitude, so fed up of work, so fed up of the whole world.

voiced out
7:41 PM