Tuesday, February 20, 2007
i went to meet him just now! i was veryveryveryveryveryvery happy because i miss him like sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. i finally get to give him his belated bday present which has already collected dust at my place. but then............. argh. its really complicated la, our situation. my plan was to actually meet him and told him that i don't need him anymore. but its just so hard to do that. he doesn't want to let me gooooooo. i mean, i don't want to too, i just thought i had enough of all these drama but i just cant bring myself to forget him totally. i kept telling myself to be strong,to make this final decision really final but i just couldn't do it. i don't know if i can trust his explanations and words. he hugged me, and wiped away my tears. and when he say he misses me, he pokes my stomach playfully and brushes my hair away from my face. he hugged me again and when he had to go and catch the last bus, he told me he couldn't bear to leave me. oh gosh. i just miss you so fucking much ok? why can't we just be happy together like beforeeeeeeeee.. damn sial. i just want you and nobody else ok fad. argh fuck.! i don't know why its just so easy for me to forgive him despite all that he's done. maybe bcos he used to forgive me so easily too? i dont know. haiz i miss theseeee...
voiced out
1:02 AM
i went to meet him just now! i was veryveryveryveryveryvery happy because i miss him like sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. i finally get to give him his belated bday present which has already collected dust at my place. but then............. argh. its really complicated la, our situation. my plan was to actually meet him and told him that i don't need him anymore. but its just so hard to do that. he doesn't want to let me gooooooo. i mean, i don't want to too, i just thought i had enough of all these drama but i just cant bring myself to forget him totally. i kept telling myself to be strong,to make this final decision really final but i just couldn't do it. i don't know if i can trust his explanations and words. he hugged me, and wiped away my tears. and when he say he misses me, he pokes my stomach playfully and brushes my hair away from my face. he hugged me again and when he had to go and catch the last bus, he told me he couldn't bear to leave me. oh gosh. i just miss you so fucking much ok? why can't we just be happy together like beforeeeeeeeee.. damn sial. i just want you and nobody else ok fad. argh fuck.! i don't know why its just so easy for me to forgive him despite all that he's done. maybe bcos he used to forgive me so easily too? i dont know. haiz i miss theseeee...
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even though i only saw u for like what, 15 mins? it really means a lot to me ok. all our memories together, still fresh in my mind =( i don't know lah ok, i don't know why im so crazy over you. i don't know why i am so madly in love with you. i just am ok?! haiz im sorry guys, feeling a lil hyper happy and hyper sad today. k bye.
voiced out
1:02 AM
