yeah, this is an old song but i love chris brown. and whenever i listen to this, i think of fad and i always imagined him dedicating this song to me. haha aiyo.
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
i still do miss him. it even got worse. i still cry whenever i think about us. and i still can't stop thinking about him all the fucking time. what to do?
so 2 papers down, 1 more to go. BZC paper was manageable and EVM just sucked. i knew i wasn't gonna be able to memorise 9 units of crap within a few days and thus, the inability to answer the questions well. i guess we've been concentrating on the dinner&dance too much that we forgot about the theory. but at least, i didn't leave anything blank but when i think back of the answers that i've written, its just the same as leaving them blank lah. haha. no paper tomorrow, tourism paper on thursday. so just updating this space for a bit.
the family chalet last saturday was just okay. it wasn't all fun and everything cos basically all i did was eaaaaat and slacked with my cousins. and also the best part was seeing the twins. :) there was also a last-minute belated bday celebration for my cousin. at around 2am, followed my cousin and his frens go fishing at the nearby beach. brother joined us later. there were 4 rods but they caught NOTHING. tak guna sak korang. hahaha. went back to the chalet at 8am, bathed, packed our things and checked out. went home with bro at around 11 while the rest waited for the little ones to finish their swimming at the pool. once home, i slept like, really slept! only woke up at 8pm then joined aidil, saz and kid to study at the nearby mac. and after that chalet, i was suddenly in a chalet-y mood seh. dee! are we planning one soon or not?! but please eh, no staying until 3am only. hahaha.
and here are some pictures...
my dear wani
and dear wana :)
haziq&ashraf
happy belated 16th bday ijal!
the handmake cake by bik yati. too girlish kan? haha.
barbecue...
sup tulang beb!!!
cousins love.
they don't wanna get up till they're black.
and things just has to get worse for my family. we're really on a financial crisis. well something happened to papa's job and i don't know if anybody would still wanna employ him with his current age and health. and with his low education some more. fuck that company siak. its not that im complaining that i won't be getting money or anything because the truth was, i was never given allowance. so every month with my pathetic pay, that was the money i used to topup my ezlink, pay my hp bill, internet bill and also for my daily food and whatnots. i don't mind at all because i know my parents can't afford to give me luxury like some people. whenever i shop or buy something, i will tend to be more appreciative towards my things because i know i bought them using my hard earned money. i'm just angry at the company that papa worked for before. they indirectly cheated papa's pay seh. haiz. i just hope papa will get a job soon. at times like this i wish i can help them but with my pay alone, its only enough for my expenditure. its only sometimes that i gave them a bit of money when i worked extra. haiz its life, i guess.
going out to study with fara tmr. with the computer and tv at home, forget about studying. haha. sape nak join?!!!
voiced out
2:28 AM
