lifeless.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

hari-hari macam gini lah keja aku. i'll wake up at 3pm at least, go out, home by 12am and then go online till at least 4am then to bed. and the cycle just goes on and on. mum have been nagging but at least i did my housework first before going out ok. how to survive school days later eh?!

my saturday was spent with anak makan *smirks* and the belos. we lepak2 at the esplanade and i saw am yang gelap nak mampus. and he just had to tell me fad was around that area too with his friends. and then i was hoping silently i would bump into him. like for what i don't know? he wouldn't even care if he saw me and there's no reason for me to see him also. maybe i just wanna see him, you know. so after that rizman went off with his friends while me and the belos sat outside marina square talking about 'floating' and 'indonesian maid' shits. wtf. hahahaha.

i'm left with less than 50 bucks in the bank right now and NO its not abt me going out often k. so far my meals outside are always sponsored (btw thanks rizman for the treat tadi!) and i have concession stamp for my transport. and i didn't even go shopping! but i did pay my bills and everything, thats why. grrr. such a pathetic amount. the next payday would be in about 2 weeks more. hmpf.

this guy just made me believe even more strongly than ever that GUYS ARE BECOMING F*CKING SENSITIVE. he was being such a fucked up brat just for that stupid teeny weeny comment. and i won't mention names.

and tonight, i really don't feel good. like all of a sudden! and after so long, my tears are welling up because of him again. i miss you fad and i hate it.

voiced out
3:56 AM