lifeless.

Friday, June 29, 2007

yes. the previous entry was deleted because... it just feels very redundant all of a sudden. i don't know i'm just feeling very stupid now. i wonder if im oversensitive or if im taking all of this too seriously. but its true isn't it. the bad feeling that i was having yesterday was indeed right. its not as if i was asking for it, i just had that feeling. and last night everything came crashing down on me. i don't even know why is it affecting me so much. probably cause the special feeling that i once thought we shared suddenly doesn't seem so special anymore. so tell me, am i oversensitive? is this really a big deal for me to dwell on? if its not, then why am i taking it as though it is a big deal. rargh. i can still handle all of this though. but the feeling just sucks like hell. jealous? hurt? sad? all mixed up. whenever i felt this way, i just wanna puke! azimah should know this well, haha. so yeah, it totally sucks.

2007 is just not my year with boys i think. the previous wound is still there and now, *BAM* everything hurts twice as more. okay. *deepbreathindeepbreathout* there's always a brighter side of life. :)

voiced out
1:33 PM