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Monday, April 28, 2008

i think i really have to blog about this. its gonna be a typical narrative story.

yesterday was a day filled with a whole lot of question marks. after fitri's mini birthday celebration at lau pa sat, i made my way to bukit panjang to meet my dearest favourite boy :) with izyani since she stayed around the area too. we decided to take the bus from there but there were none in that area. so we walked to fullerton hotel and waited for 700 for 20 minutes only to realise that the last bus that day was at 2pm. !!!!!!!! so we waaaaalked to esplanade and waited for 960 for 35 freaking minutes! we finally reached at about 12 plus and after we parted ways; she went to the LRT station while i confidently told her i'll walk and find the block myself, this guy whom i supposed was a filipino approached me and started asking me the randomest question.

"I just needed a female opinion on this. My friend has been dating this girl for over 3 months and he stopped her from going out with other guys. If you were her, would you hate your guy? Dump him?"

I was thinking, "WHY THE HELL ARE YOU EVEN ASKING ME?! DO I LOOK LIKE I EVEN CARE? BUKIT PANJANG-IANS HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO IS IT? SO THEY ALWAYS ASK STUPID BGR QUESTIONS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT TO TOTAL STRANGERS?!"

and then he started blabbering which i couldn't absorb at all because i was in shock! I swear i thought he was gonna ask a dirty question when he claimed he needed a "female opinion". i have all these thoughts running through my mind like, what if he molested me and ran away? things like that. i know, i'm so paranoid! I was sooo relieved when izyani called me and ask me what happened. She was so kind to make her way out of the LRT and accompanied me all the way to his block! and she even waited with me for the boy to get ready. She said that sex maniacs usually lurk around in that area and she doesn't want anything to happen to me. SWEET KAN. Hahaha. I was touched lah, she really waited until the boy appears and that was already 1am plus and there were no more LRT service. Of course, i insisted in giving her money for her cabfare.

so THAT, was a really super interestingly weird trip to bukit panjang.

so then, its just me and the boy. i admit that at first i was pissed because NR3 took such a long time to come and it was scorching hot, both of us were sweating like fuck. it didn't help that he showed tantrums at the beginning. but everything was okay when both of us cooled down (literally) in the air-coned bus. and plus, i have to say HE LOOKED SO BLOODY GOOD THAT DAY. suka skali! while i on the other hand, feel like a total shit because i've been out since afternoon and my face was all oily and sweaty. haha. it was just a movie afterwards and we just spent the night away talking. just the two of us! i love love love love love it. =)

so as the horoscope says...

"All of your efforts to connect with a certain someone are working, but they might be working too slowly for your taste. That's too bad, though -- this is one time when you can't push things. You will have to be patient and let them come around in the way they want and at the speed they want. Waiting won't be fun, but think about it this way -- your reward will be sweet, and you will know that it comes from a very genuine place. It won't be the result of any pressure or manipulation."

i have never thought that i will like him this much. and funny too, cos i've never felt it in a pretty long time already. but then again, i am still trying to brush out that doubt i have once in a while.

i think i sound like a hopelessly-in-love freak today. ppfffttt. its just like err, a reallly really really huuuuge crush lah. hehehe =p

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