Friday, July 04, 2008
it's surprising that somehow, i actually felt okay about it. well maybe not ENTIRELY okay but at least, not upset-till-i-cant-sleep kinda thing. i was kinda relieved too. guess everything is for the better. and furthermore, i KNEW this was coming. i totally knew it. so i guess, not having high hopes and to expect for the worst helps a lot. yes, i've learnt my lesson. =) i think i just need a liiiitle more time to totally let go of everything. true, i felt like lashing out everything that's been bothering me and why i tink its not fair but of course i can't do that. because to think of it, it's not a big deal. waiting is not a big deal what. i don't know if i'm sad but what the fuck right? i should be getting used to this already. hmmm. sometimes when i think about it, i don't mind and i don't care. i'm perfectly fine with the situation. totally optimistic. but on other (emo) times, i feel like crap. i feel used and useless and stupid. confusing.
that's why i always ask myself whether i'm really okay. i'm okay right? or am i just acting okay? bloody hell.
anyway, THIS MOVIE IS THE SHIT.
angelina jolie is soooooooooooo cooooooooollllllll!!!!!!!!! it's seriously worth your every penny. although i watched this for free lah. muahahaha. i have to agree with dee, i love the "he's the motherfucking decoy" part. woooooo.
and this weekend will be a short getaway out of the country. I is sexcited!
voiced out
3:13 AM
it's surprising that somehow, i actually felt okay about it. well maybe not ENTIRELY okay but at least, not upset-till-i-cant-sleep kinda thing. i was kinda relieved too. guess everything is for the better. and furthermore, i KNEW this was coming. i totally knew it. so i guess, not having high hopes and to expect for the worst helps a lot. yes, i've learnt my lesson. =) i think i just need a liiiitle more time to totally let go of everything. true, i felt like lashing out everything that's been bothering me and why i tink its not fair but of course i can't do that. because to think of it, it's not a big deal. waiting is not a big deal what. i don't know if i'm sad but what the fuck right? i should be getting used to this already. hmmm. sometimes when i think about it, i don't mind and i don't care. i'm perfectly fine with the situation. totally optimistic. but on other (emo) times, i feel like crap. i feel used and useless and stupid. confusing.
that's why i always ask myself whether i'm really okay. i'm okay right? or am i just acting okay? bloody hell.
anyway, THIS MOVIE IS THE SHIT.
angelina jolie is soooooooooooo cooooooooollllllll!!!!!!!!! it's seriously worth your every penny. although i watched this for free lah. muahahaha. i have to agree with dee, i love the "he's the motherfucking decoy" part. woooooo.
and this weekend will be a short getaway out of the country. I is sexcited!
voiced out
3:13 AM
